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"I thought you thought--"

"I did think that. Now I don't know what to think. We have got to
wait."

"I'm willing to wait for Ellen!"

"She seems," said Mrs. Kenton, "to have more sense than both the other
children put together, and I was afraid--"

"She might easily have more sense than Boyne, or Lottie, either."

"Well, I don't know," Mrs. Kenton began. But she did not go on to resent
the disparagement which she had invited. "What I was afraid of was her
goodness. It was her goodness that got her into the trouble, to begin
with. If she hadn't been so good, that fellow could never have fooled
her as he did. She was too innocent."

The judge could not forbear the humorous view. "Perhaps she's getting
wickeder, or not so innocent. At any rate, she doesn't seem to have been
take in by Trannel."

"He didn't pay any attention to her. He was all taken up with Lottie."

"Well, that was lucky. Sarah," said the judge, "do you think he is like
Bittridge?"

"He's made me think of him all the time."

"It's curious," the judge mused. "I have always noticed how our faults
repeat themselves, but I didn't suppose our fates would always take the
same shape, or something like it." Mrs. Kenton stared at him. "When
this other one first made up to us on the boat my heart went down. I
thought of Bittridge so."

"Mr. Breckon?"

"Yes, the same lightness; the same sort of trifling--Didn't you notice
it?"

"No--yes, I noticed it. But I wasn't afraid for an instant. I saw that
he was good."

"Oh!"

"What I'm afraid of now is that Ellen doesn't care anything about him."

"He isn't wicked enough?"

"I don't say that. But it would be too much happiness to expect in one
short life."

The judge could not deny the reasonableness of her position. He could
only oppose it. "Well, I don't think we've had any more than our share
of happiness lately."

No one except Boyne could have made Trannel's behavior a cause of
quarrel, but the other Kentons made it a cause of coldness which was
quite as effective. In Lottie this took the form of something so active,
so positive, that it was something more than a mere absence of warmth.
Before she came clown to breakfast the next morning she studied a stare
in her mirror, and practised it upon Trannel so successfully when he came
up to speak to her that it must have made him doubt whether he had ever
had her acquaintance. In his doubt he ventured to address her, and then
Lottie turned her back upon him in a manner that was perfectly
convincing. He attempted a smiling ease with Mrs. Kenton and the judge,
but they shared neither his smile nor his ease, and his jocose questions
about the end of yesterday's adventures, which he had not been privy to,
did not seem to appeal to the American sense of humor in them. Ellen was
not with them, nor Boyne, but Trannel was not asked to take either of the
vacant places at the table, even when Breckon took one of them, after a
decent exchange of civilities with him. He could only saunter away and
leave Mrs. Kenton to a little pang.

"Tchk!" she made. "I'm sorry for him!"

"So am I," said the judge. "But he will get over it--only too soon, I'm
afraid. I don't believe he's very sorry for himself."

They had not advised with Breckon, and he did not feel authorized to make
any comment. He seemed preoccupied, to Mrs. Kenton's eye, when she
turned it upon him from Trannel's discomfited back, lessening in the
perspective, and he answered vaguely to her overture about his night's
rest. Lottie never made any conversation with Breckon, and she now left
him to himself, with some remnants of the disapproval which she found on
her hands after crushing Trannel. It could not be said that Breckon was
aware of her disapproval, and the judge had no apparent consciousness of
it. He and Breckon tried to make something of each other, but failed,
and it all seemed a very defeating sequel to Mrs. Kenton after the
triumphal glow of the evening before. When Lottie rose, she went with
her, alleging her wish to see if Boyne had eaten his breakfast. She
confessed, to Breckon's kind inquiry, that Boyne did not seem very well,
and that she had made him take his breakfast in his room, and she did not
think it necessary to own, even to so friendly a witness as Mr. Breckon,
that Boyne was ashamed to come down, and dreaded meeting Trannel so much
that she was giving him time to recover his self-respect and courage.

As soon as she and Lottie were gone Breckon began, rather more formidably
than he liked, but helplessly so: "Judge Kenton, I should be glad of a
few moments with you on--on an important--on a matter that is important
to me."

"Well," said the judge, cautiously. Whatever was coming, he wished to
guard himself from the mistake that he had once so nearly fallen into,
and that still made him catch his breath to think of. "How can I be of
use to you?"

"I don't know that you can be of any use--I don't know that I ought to
speak to you. But I thought you might perhaps save me from--save my
taking a false step."

He looked at Kenton as if he would understand, and Kenton supposed that
he did. He said, "My daughter once mentioned your wish to talk with me."

"Your daughter?" Breckon stared at him in stupefaction.

"Yes; Ellen. She said you wished to consult me about going back to your
charge in New York, when we were on the ship together. But I don't know
that I'm very competent to give advice in such--"

"Oh!" Breckon exclaimed, in a tone of immense relief, which did not
continue itself in what he went on to say. "That! I've quite made up my
mind to go back." He stopped, and then he burst out, "I want to speak
with you about her." The judge sat steady, still resolute not to give
himself away, and the young man scarcely recovered from what had been a
desperate plunge in adding: "I know that it's usual to speak with her
--with the lady herself first, but--I don't know! The circumstances are
peculiar. You only know about me what you've seen of me, and I would
rather make my mistakes in the order that seems right to me, although it
isn't just the American way."

He smiled rather piteously, and the judge said, rather encouragingly,
"I don't quite know whether I follow you."

Breckon blushed, and sought help in what remained of his coffee. "The
way isn't easy for me. But it's this: I ask your leave to ask Miss Ellen
to marry me." The worst was over now, and looked as if it were a relief.
"She is the most beautiful person in the world to me, and the best;
but as you know so little of me, I thought it right to get your leave--to
tell you--to--to--That is all." He fell back in his chair and looked a
at Kenton.

"It is unusual," the judge began.

"Yes, Yes; I know that. And for that reason I speak first to you. I'll
be ruled by you implicitly."

"I don't mean that," Kenton said. "I would have expected that you would
speak to her first. But I get your point of view, and I must say I think
you're right. I think you are behaving--honorably. I wish that every
one was like you. But I can't say anything now. I must talk with her
mother. My daughter's life has not been happy. I can't tell you. But
as far as I am concerned, and I think Mrs. Kenton, too, I would be glad
--We like you Mr. Breckon. We think you are a good man.

"Oh, thank you. I'm not so sure--"

"We'd risk it. But that isn't all. Will you excuse me if I don't say
anything more just yet--and if I leave you?"

"Why, certainly." The judge had risen and pushed back his chair, and
Breckon did the same. "And I shall--hear from you?"

"Why, certainly," said the judge in his turn.

"It isn't possible that you put him off!" his wife reproached him, when
he told what had passed between him and Breckon. "Oh, you couldn't have
let him think that we didn't want him for her! Surely you didn't!"

"Will you get it into your head," he flamed back, "that he hasn't spoken
to Ellen yet, and I couldn't accept him till she had?"

"Oh yes. I forgot that." Mrs. Kenton struggled with the fact, in the
difficulty of realizing so strange an order of procedure. "I suppose
it's his being educated abroad that way. But, do go back to him, Rufus,
and tell him that of course--"

"I will do nothing of the kind, Sarah! What are you thinking of?"

"Oh, I don't know what I'm thinking of! I must see Ellen, I suppose.
I'll go to her now. Oh, dear, if she doesn't--if she lets such a chance
slip through her fingers--But she's quite likely to, she's so obstinate!
I wonder what she'll want us to do."

She fled to her daughter's room and found Boyne there, sitting beside his
sister's bed, giving her a detailed account of his adventure of the day
before, up to the moment Mr. Breckon met him, in charge of the
detectives. Up to that moment, it appeared to Boyne, as nearly as he
could recollect, that he had not broken down, but had behaved himself
with a dignity which was now beginning to clothe his whole experience.
In the retrospect, a quiet heroism characterized his conduct, and at the
moment his mother entered the room he was questioning Ellen as to her
impressions of his bearing when she first saw him in the grasp of the
detectives.

His mother took him by the arm, and said, "I want to speak with Ellen,
Boyne," and put him out of the door.

Then she came back and sat down in his chair. "Ellen. Mr. Breckon has
been speaking to your father. Do you know what about?"

"About his going back to New York?" the girl suggested.

Her mother kept her patience with difficulty. "No, not about that.
About you! He's asked your father--I can't understand yet why he did it,
only he's so delicate and honorable, and goodness known we appreciate it
--whether he can tell you that--that--" It was not possible for such a
mother as Mrs. Kenton to say "He loves you"; it would have sounded as she
would have said, too sickish, and she compromised on: "He likes you, and
wants to ask you whether you will marry him. And, Ellen," she continued,
in the ample silence which followed, "if you don't say you will, I will
have nothing more to do With such a simpleton. I have always felt that
you behaved very foolishly about Mr. Bittridge, but I hoped that when you
grew older you would see it as we did, and--and behave differently. And
now, if, after all we've been through with you, you are going to say that
you won't have Mr. Breckon--"

Mrs. Kenton stopped for want of a figure that would convey all the
disaster that would fall upon Ellen in such an event, and she was given
further pause when the girl gently answered, "I'm not going to say that,
momma."

"Then what in the world are you going to say?" Mrs. Kenton demanded.

Ellen had turned her face away on the pillow, and now she answered,
quietly, "When Mr. Breckon asks me I will tell him."

"Well, you had better!" her mother threatened in return, and she did not
realize the falsity of her position till she reported Ellen's words to
the judge.

"Well, Sarah, I think she had you there," he said, and Mrs. Kenton then
said that she did not care, if the child was only going to behave
sensibly at last, and she did believe she was.

"Then it's all right" said the judge, and he took up the Tuskingum
Intelligencer, lying till then unread in the excitements which had
followed its arrival the day before, and began to read it.

Mrs. Kenton sat dreamily watching him, with her hands fallen in her lap.
She suddenly started up, with the cry, "Good gracious! What are we all
thinking of?"

Kenton stared at her over the top of his paper. "How, thinking of?"

"Why Mr. Breckon! He must be crazy to know what we've decided, poor
fellow!"

"Oh," said the judge, folding the Intelligencer on his knee. "I had
forgotten. Somehow, I thought it was all settled."

Mrs. Kenton took his paper from him, and finished folding it. "It hasn't
begun to be settled. You must go and let him know."

"Won't he look me up?" the judge suggested.

"You must look him up. Go at once dear! Think how anxious he must be!"

Kenton was not sure that Breckon looked very anxious when he found him on
the brick promenade before the Kurhaus, apparently absorbed in noting the
convulsions of a large, round German lady in the water, who must have
supposed herself to be bathing. But perhaps the young man did not see
her; the smile on his face was too vague for such an interest when he
turned at Kenton's approaching steps.

The judge hesitated for an instant, in which the smile left Breckon's
face. "I believe that's all right, Mr. Breckon," he said. "You'll find
Mrs. Kenton in our parlor," and then the two men parted, with an "Oh,
thank you!" from Breckon, who walked back towards the hotel, and left
Kenton to ponder upon the German lady; as soon as he realized that she
was not a barrel, the judge continued his walk along the promenade,
feeling rather ashamed.

Mrs. Kenton had gone to Ellen's room again when she had got the judge off
upon his mission. She rather flung in upon her. "Oh, you are up!" she
apologized to Ellen's back. The girl's face was towards the glass, and
she was tilting her head to get the effect of the hat on it, which she
now took off.

"I suppose poppa's gone to tell him," she said, sitting tremulously down.

"Didn't you want him to?" her mother asked, stricken a little at sight
of her agitation.

"Yes, I wanted him to, but that doesn't make it any easier. It makes it
harder. Momma!"

"Well, Ellen?"

"You know you've got to tell him, first."

"Tell him?" Mrs. Kenton repeated, but she knew what Ellen meant.

"About--Mr. Bittridge. All about it. Every single thing. About his
kissing me that night."

At the last demand Mrs. Kenton was visibly shaken in her invisible assent
to the girl's wish. "Don't you think, Ellen, that you had better tell
him that--some time?"

"No, now. And you must tell him. You let me go to the theatre with
him." The faintest shadow of resentment clouded the girl's face, but
still Mrs. Kenton, thought she knew her own guilt, could not yield.

"Why, Ellen," she pleaded, not without a reproachful sense of vulgarity
in such a plea, "don't you suppose HE ever--kissed any one?"

"That doesn't concern me, momma," said Ellen, without a trace of
consciousness that she was saying anything uncommon. "If you won't tell
him, then that ends it. I won't see him."

"Oh, well!" her mother sighed. "I will try to tell him. But I'd rather
be whipped. I know he'll laugh at me."

"He won't laugh at you," said the girl, confidently, almost comfortingly.
"I want him to know everything before I meet him. I don't want to have a
single thing on my mind. I don't want to think of myself!"

Mrs. Kenton understood the woman--soul that spoke in these words.
"Well," she said, with a deep, long breath, "be ready, then."

But she felt the burden which had been put upon her to be so much more
than she could bear that when she found her husband in their parlor she
instantly resolved to cast it upon him. He stood at the window with his
hat on.

"Has Breckon been here yet?" he asked.

"Have you seen him yet?" she returned.

"Yes, and I thought he was coming right here. But perhaps he stopped to
screw his courage up. He only knew how little it needed with us!"

"Well, now, it's we who've got to have the courage. Or you have. Do you
know what Ellen wants to have done?" Mrs. Kenton put it in these
impersonal terms, and as a preliminary to shirking her share of the
burden.

"She doesn't want to have him refused?"

"She wants to have him told all about Bittridge."

After a momentary revolt the judge said, "Well, that's right. It's like
Ellen."

"There's something else that's more like her," said Mrs. Kenton,
indignantly. "She wants him to told about what Bittridge did that night
--about him kissing her."

The judge looked disgusted with his wife for the word; then he looked
aghast. "About--"

"Yes, and she won't have a word to say to him till he is told, and unless
he is told she will refuse him."

"Did she say that?"

"No, but I know she will."

"If she didn't say she would, I think we may take the chances that she
won't."

"No, we mustn't take any such chances. You must tell him."

"I? No, I couldn't manage it. I have no tact, and it would sound so
confoundedly queer, coming from one man to another. It would be
--indelicate. It's something that nobody but a woman--Why doesn't she
tell him herself?"

"She won't. She considers it our part, and something we ought to do
before he commits himself."

"Very well, then, Sarah, you must tell him. You can manage it so it
won't by so--queer.

"That is just what I supposed you would say, Mr. Kenton, but I must say I
didn't expect it of you. I think it's cowardly."

"Look out, Sarah! I don't like that word."

"Oh, I suppose you're brave enough when it comes to any kind of danger.
But when it comes to taking the brunt of anything unpleasant--"

"It isn't unpleasant--it's queer."

"Why do you keep saying that over and over? There's nothing queer about
it. It's Ellenish but isn't it right?"

"It's right, yes, I suppose. But it's squeamish."

"I see nothing squeamish about it. But I know you're determined to leave
it to me, and so I shall do it. I don't believe Mr. Breckon will think
it's queer or squeamish."

"I've no doubt he'll take it in the right way; you'll know how to--"
Kenton looked into his hat, which he had taken off and then put it on
again. His tone and his manner were sufficiently sneaking, and he could
not make them otherwise. It was for this reason, no doubt, that he would
not prolong the interview.

"Oh yes, go!" said Mrs. Kenton, as he found himself with his hand on the
door. "Leave it all to me, do!" and he was aware of skulking out of the
room. By the time that it would have taken him so long as to walk to the
top of the grand stairway he was back again. "He's coming!" he said,
breathlessly. "I saw him at the bottom of the stairs. Go into your room
and wash your eyes. I'LL tell him."

"No, no, Rufus! Let me! It will be much better. You'll be sure to
bungle it."

"We must risk that. You were quite right, Sarah. It would have been
cowardly in me to let you do it."

"Rufus! You know I didn't mean it! Surely you're not resenting that?"

"No. I'm glad you made me see it. You're all right, Sarah, and you'll
find that it will all come out all right. You needn't be afraid I'll
bungle it. I shall use discretion. Go--"

"I shall not stir a step from this parlor! You've got back all your
spirit, dear," said the old wife, with young pride in her husband.
"But I must say that Ellen is putting more upon you than she has any
right to. I think she might tell him herself."

"No, it's our business--my business. We allowed her to get in for it.
She's quite right about it. We must not let him commit himself to her
till he knows the thing that most puts her to shame. It isn't enough for
us to say that it was really no shame. She feels that it casts a sort of
stain--you know what I mean, Sarah, and I believe I can make this young
man know. If I can't, so much the worse for him. He shall never see
Ellen again."

"Oh, Rufus!"

"Do you think he would be worthy of her if he couldn't?"

"I think Ellen is perfectly ridiculous."

"Then that shows that I am right in deciding not to leave this thing to
you. I feel as she does about it, and I intend that he shall."

"Do you intend to let her run the chance of losing him?"

"That is what I intend to do."

"Well, then, I'll tell you what: I am going to stay right here. We will
both see him; it's right for us to do it." But at a rap on the parlor
door Mrs. Kenton flew to that of her own room, which she closed upon her
with a sort of Parthian whimper, "Oh, do be careful, Rufus!"

Whether Kenton was careful or not could never be known, from either
Kenton himself or from Breckon. The judge did tell him everything, and
the young man received the most damning details of Ellen's history with a
radiant absence which testified that they fell upon a surface sense of
Kenton, and did not penetrate to the all-pervading sense of Ellen herself
below. At the end Kenton was afraid he had not understood.

"You understand," he said, "that she could not consent to see you before
you knew just how weak she thought she had been." The judge stiffened to
defiance in making this humiliation. "I don't consider, myself, that she
was weak at all."

"Of course not!" Breckon beamed back at him.

"I consider that throughout she acted with the greatest--greatest--And
that in that affair, when he behaved with that--that outrageous
impudence, it was because she had misled the scoundrel by her kindness,
her forbearance, her wish not to do him the least shadow of injustice,
but to give him every chance of proving himself worthy of her tolerance;
and--"

The judge choked, and Breckon eagerly asked, "And shall I--may I see her
now?"

"Why--yes," the judge faltered. "If you're sure--"

"What about?" Breckon demanded.

"I don't know whether she will believe that I have told you."

"I will try to convince her. Where shall I see her?"

"I will go and tell her you are here. I will bring her--"

Kenton passed into the adjoining room, where his wife laid hold of him,
almost violently. "You did it beautifully, Rufus," she huskily
whispered, "and I was so afraid you would spoil everything. Oh, how
manly you were, and how perfect he was! But now it's my turn, and I will
go and bring Ellen--You will let me, won't you?"

"You may do anything you please, Sarah. I don't want to have any more of
this," said the judge from the chair he had dropped into.

"Well, then, I will bring her at once," said Mrs. Kenton, staying only in
her gladness to kiss him on his gray head; he received her embrace with a
superficial sultriness which did not deceive her.

Ellen came back without her mother, and as soon as she entered the room,
and Breckon realized that she had come alone, he ran towards her as if to
take her in his arms. But she put up her hand with extended fingers, and
held him lightly off.

"Did poppa tell you?" she asked, with a certain defiance. She held her
head up fiercely, and spoke steadily, but he could see the pulse beating
in her pretty neck.

"Yes, he told me--"

"And--well?"

"Oh, I love you, Ellen--"

"That isn't it. Did you care?"

Breckon had an inspiration, an inspiration from the truth that dwelt at
the bottom of his soul and had never yet failed to save him. He let his
arms fall and answered, desperately: "Yes, I did. I wished it hadn't
happened." He saw the pulse in her neck cease to beat, and he swiftly
added, "But I know that it happened just because you were yourself, and
were so--"

"If you had said you didn't care," she breathlessly whispered, "I would
never have spoken to you." He felt a conditional tremor creeping into the
fingers which had been so rigid against his breast. "I don't see how I
lived through it! Do you think you can?"

"I think so," he returned, with a faint, far suggestion of levity that
brought from her an imperative, imploring--

"Don't!"

Then he added, solemnly, "It had no more to do with you, Ellen, than an
offence from some hateful animal--"

"Oh, how good you are!" The fingers folded themselves, and her arms
weakened so that there was nothing to keep him from drawing her to him.
"What--what are you doing?" she asked, with her face smothered against
his.

"Oh, Ell-en, Ellen, Ellen! Oh, my love, my dearest, my best!"

"But I have been such a fool!" she protested, imagining that she was
going to push him from her, but losing herself in him more and more.

"Yes, yes, darling! I know it. That's why I love you so!"




XXVI.

"There is just one thing," said the judge, as he wound up his watch that
night, "that makes me a little uneasy still."

Mrs. Kenton, already in her bed turned her face upon him with a
despairing "Tchk! Dear! What is it? I thought we had talked over
everything."

"We haven't got Lottie's consent yet."

"Well, I think I see myself asking Lottie!" Mrs. Kenton began, before
she realized her husband's irony. She added, "How could you give me such
a start?"

"Well, Lottie has bossed us so long that I couldn't help mentioning it,"
said the judge.

It was a lame excuse, and in its most potential implication his
suggestion proved without reason. If Lottie never gave her explicit
approval to Ellen's engagement, she never openly opposed it. She treated
it, rather, with something like silent contempt, as a childish weakness
on Ellen's part which was beneath her serious consideration. Towards
Breckon, her behavior hardly changed in the severity which she had
assumed from the moment she first ceased to have any use for him.
"I suppose I will have to kiss him," she said, gloomily, when her mother
told her that he was to be her brother, and she performed the rite with
as much coldness as was ever put in that form of affectionate welcome.
It is doubtful if Breckon perfectly realized its coldness; he never knew
how much he enraged her by acting as if she were a little girl, and
saying lightly, almost trivially, "I'm so glad you're going to be a
sister to me."

With Ellen, Lottie now considered herself quits, and from the first hour
of Ellen's happiness she threw off all the care with all the apparent
kindness which she had used towards her when she was a morbid invalid.
Here again, if Lottie had minded such a thing, she might have been as
much vexed by Ellen's attitude as by Breckon's. Ellen never once noticed
the withdrawal of her anxious oversight, or seemed in the least to miss
it. As much as her meek nature would allow, she arrogated to herself the
privileges and prerogatives of an elder sister, and if it had been
possible to make Lottie ever feel like a chit, there were moments when
Ellen's behavior would have made her feel like a chit. It was not till
after their return to Tuskingum that Lottie took her true place in
relation to the affair, and in the preparations for the wedding, which
she appointed to be in the First Universalist Church, overruling both her
mother's and sister's preferences for a home wedding, that Lottie rose in
due authority. Mrs. Kenton had not ceased to feel quelled whenever her
younger daughter called her mother instead of momma, and Ellen seemed not
really to care. She submitted the matter to Breckon, who said, "Oh yes,
if Lottie wishes," and he laughed when Ellen confessed, "Well, I said
we would."